P.S : This story is dedicated to one of my sweet lil friend. He has repeatedly urged me to write and hence I have come out of oblivion to oblige him :-) Arty this is for you
" Why don't you come with me? " , Larry asked Jane.
" I am sorry I can't. They need me!" , she replied forlornly.
" What about me Jane? Dont i need you?", He asked frustratedly.
They have exchanged the same words time and again these past 5 days. Jane turned towards the window. Looking at the setting sun, she felt as if its sunset of her life. Tears streamed undetected.
Like always, he was the one to go to her, give her a hug. In her lover's arms, she wept her heart out. Tears started pouring from Larry's eyes too.
" I love you Jane. I cannot live without you"
" They donot need you as I do."
Even in her lover's arm, Jane couldn't forget her family... " They need me more..."
" Dammit! Do you realize ... do you realize they donot give a damn about you?"
" How could you be so blind? tell me! How could you? "
" They are not unkind or hate me.. They are only forgetful! "
"Oh shoot!You do realize right? that if i leave I never come back!!"
Jane starts crying again. She didn't know what to do. They are all she has. And now him. How can she choose?
Larry can see resoluteness in her eyes. He feels she has given up. He feels soo afraid!
" do you think they will miss you if you left? I bet they won't! But I.. I keep count of each second you are away from me.. and yet you want to let me go? "
Jane was shocked.. shocked at Larry's cruel words and hurt too.. And yet she could understand his pain... She went to him and kissed him lightly on his cheek and forehead..
Like always passion was the answer.. the comfort. Larry sometimes didn't undertsand how they could be arguing and yet it took one touch.. one kiss to forget everything but the fact that Jane was in his arms.
But this time he decided, this time they wont part like this. Desperately he controlled his feelings and moved back from her.
Jane didn't understand what went wrong. On moment before they were close and the next.. he left her..
For long both didnt say anything.. The silence was lengthening like the evening shadows..
Larry said, " Jane. I see that we are wasting time here. Time that is left.. time that is precious. I donot want to leave you with only memories of tears of our last few days. I want us to be happy until we can"
" Larry... ", Jane started.
" No.. let me finish." Sotto voice he continued, " As I said, I want us to be happy while we are here. There is nothing new that I said in the past few days.. and nothing new in what you said. You know what I think about your family. And I know that I've hurt you. If I am sorry then its for hurting you.. but i believe what i said is true. I think you will u\s in future. I will still wait.. Such is the fate of lovers.. waiting.. But you know I can't wait for long. So I am here for 5 more days. In this 5 days, if you feel like meeting me I am here. If you change mind I am here.. Rest I leave it to god. "
Jane had no words to say. How can she think of her life without him!
Its her eyes that could speak words her mouth could not. For long she looked at him. It was like she already lost him... His face was unreadable and so was his heart. It was as if he wanted to save his emotions and he had locked his thoughts and his heart.
She couldn't take it anymore and she ran off.
Larry saw her going. He didnt try to stop her. He had lost her. Now all he had was blind hope and bitterness. For long he kept staring in the direction she went as if he could will her to appear. And then as the moon shined up in the sky he cried. He cried for himself for jane and for their fate. Oh how he wished they have never met!
Larry had given up. He cried in front of her. He was angry on her. He reasoned with her. but result was same....
Jane was walking for a long time thinking.. if that could be called thinking.. Larry's words were still echoing in her ears. Without her knowledge her legs took her to her home. She didnt realize she was standing in front of the main door staring evidently for a longtime.
Her mom came down and opened the door and shook her.
" Whats the matter hon? ", asked mom.
She hugged her mom and said, " Mom! I am in love"
" Thats wonderful darling. Why don't you go up and change? Your dad doesn't like you to be late"
" Mom I said I am in love." Jane wailed.
" I heard you sweetheart. Now run and get changed like a good girl you are."
" Yes mommy."
Jane was hurt by her mother's insensitivity. She knew that her mom loved her only was a lil insensitive. She excused her mom.
" I am in love", Jane said. Facing her 2 brothers sister and parents she tried once again.
No one said anything. They listened to her and moved on to other topics like she has said something inconsequential. Suddenly she was angry! How can they all be so? Larry's words echoed in her mind. She got up from dinner table. excused herself and ran to her room.
Now every one was concerned. They looked at each other finally went to her room to talk to her.
Dad said, " I am sorry sweetheart to have hurt you. Can you forgive me please? I will buy you your favorite chocalate. Isabel, Make her favorite dishes tomorrow all day"
Jane hardly ever got angry and when she did, her family made it a point to pamper her. But this time jane wasn't mollified. They could feel that but didn't know what to do.
Jane acted as if she was fine. She realized, although they pampered her.. no one really thought about her or why she was angry.. Her family failed her in one night.. She decided to take a test. She wanted to know if she was really blind... if what larry said was true...
The next day she called her friend Rita for help. Rita and Jane were inseperable always. Larry had promised her that she can keep contact wid rita always. He will make sure of that. :-)
Rita loved Larry as much as he loved her. Rita was all for her leaving.
" I know its hard for you to leave. But you deserve happiness and love. All your life you did everything for them and they don't even notice. Let alone appreciate", rita said. She thinks Jane is stupid to let go of only person who loves her.
Like with Larry, Jane has had many discussions with Rita. But today Jane was not in mood to discuss.
" Rita I need your help. I want to know if Larry is right! I am going to disappear. I want to see how soon they come to know. Okay? "
" Are you sure dear?"
" Yes very. I cant go on like this."
" Oh honey!" Saying this Rita hugs her. Like always she finds kindness and comfort in her friends hug.
So finally they decide to execute the plan. She leaves with her friend with pretty much nothing. Jane was sure ppl would miss her soon. 3 days pass by.. no one even notice that she is lost :
* i know seems too careless. Its just that they assume she is in her room or wid her friend etc etc.. no one notices.. not coz they don't care.. just that they r indifferent....*
On the fourth day, Jane writes a letter to her parents and leaves to meet Larry.
That would be the last time anyone saw Jane. You see Larry was a ghost.. or rather like most say.. he was figment of her imagination.. Surprisingly her family got her letter though.....
And Rita? She was an illusion too. Jane was schizophrenic....
I changed the story in between. This is not what i felt like writing... But somehow this came with the flow.. I may even write the earlier ending... do tell me if u wanna know wht the letter held.. or if u wud like the other ending!
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